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as the year comes to a close, like karen, i am thinking of the past 4 years.... only i'm rather depressed. i'm so full of saddness because of how i've been screwed out of a lot of things because i am not technically graduating. i was inelligible for any awards (and that buskin award should have been mine AND sue's... but i don't think those bitches in buskin would even recognize my existance to even add my name to consideration... cunts), and to top everything off, i will be here, with only a select few other non-graduates. watching all my senior friends leave breaks my heart and i don't know how to react. i'm so full of saddness and anger... sad for everything and so angry at myself for my incompetence to prove myself in that damn class... the techniques were easy to understand, why the hell couldn't i explain that i knew it? i'm such a dumb dumb person....
and i'm so sick of being doubted.... lets add another reason why i don't want to ever move back home with my mother.... "i'm making a skirt for saturday" "why, so it can fall off your ass as you go up the stage? go buy something respectable"
to that i say FUCK YOU! you doubt my reasoning for living off campus, you won't let me fucking date, stop trying to control me!!! I told you i didn't want a PDA for graduation, i told you that i didn't want anything now.... do you listen to me? NO... what happened to all the support you used to give? why are you trying to control me and treat me as if i can't make my own decisions?? yes, maybe i have made some bad ones, but fuckin' a, let me make them... i'm 21 fucking years old..... almost 22... let me go.... its time....
AAARRRRGGGGG
and i'm so sick of being doubted.... lets add another reason why i don't want to ever move back home with my mother.... "i'm making a skirt for saturday" "why, so it can fall off your ass as you go up the stage? go buy something respectable"
to that i say FUCK YOU! you doubt my reasoning for living off campus, you won't let me fucking date, stop trying to control me!!! I told you i didn't want a PDA for graduation, i told you that i didn't want anything now.... do you listen to me? NO... what happened to all the support you used to give? why are you trying to control me and treat me as if i can't make my own decisions?? yes, maybe i have made some bad ones, but fuckin' a, let me make them... i'm 21 fucking years old..... almost 22... let me go.... its time....
AAARRRRGGGGG
